Independent Spirit!

Have you ever been hit with depression and loneliness and couldn’t understand why? It may happen for no apparent reason or because of a situation in your life. I was hit with loneliness and depression one day. It didn’t really make any sense to me because I have lots of friends and family connections. I asked God why I was feeling this way. This is what the Holy Spirit revealed to me.

Walls of Protection!

I have never felt like I had anyone watch out for me. I have always had to be responsible and independent to survive. These attitudes have blocked me from receiving someone who would watch out for me or take care of me. It has left an unmet need in me for loneliness and not having anyone invest in me or cover me in protection.

I repented for putting up barriers of independents, self-reliance, and having an identity of being the responsible one. Then I asked God to fill this need in my life. I called a friend and she prayed over me. Later that afternoon, my missionary friend, Renee, called. She was going through the same emotional roller coaster that I was. When we spoke, she had the same independent and responsible childhood. She has been used by God to tear down strongholds in both business and ministry. I shared with her these unmet needs that were in our lives of someone watching out for us or taking care of us. I explained about the barriers we put up to protect ourselves. Then she saw a mental picture of God filling these holes of unmet needs in our lives with cement.

The next day, I talked to another friend, Michelle. She was going through the same loneliness and depression. She was a very independent child left on her own to raise and entertain herself. She broke many glass ceilings by working for engineer companies with many men.

I broke spiritual strongholds in the military through this independence. Per my Air Force instructor, I was the tenth women to graduate in this military field. I was an avionics communication specialist which means I fixed all types of radio problems on all the different aircraft. There were only two women at Pope AFB in 1974 in the repair shop. We share the restroom with over one hundred men. The men broke the lock on the restroom door so you never knew who you would be sharing the bathroom with. I was so glad that I had on combat boots and fatigues, so they didn’t know there was a woman in the stall.

Pressure Reveals Cracks in Our Foundations!

I believe all this pressure is being used to bring to the surface deep wounds and barriers that have kept us from connecting to God’s family. It wasn’t that our families didn’t take care of us or didn’t love us. It seems like those whom God gave an independent spirit or breaking barriers anointing had parents who provided our physical needs but didn’t baby us. We were the ones left alone to figure things out. We were the responsible and reliable ones that were low maintenance. That was our identity and place in the family. Without meaning to, it set us up to not have others see our needs, hurts or desires. We learned to put up barriers of protection and solve our own problems. This caused isolation and loneliness. As long as we were needed and solving problems, we felt fulfilled.

This Season is Over!

The pressure we have been feeling is to remove these old barriers and reveal these needs and heal us from past wounding that we were unaware of. We are in a “now moment” to form Kingdom connections and tribal families. What do I mean by tribal families? Israel was divided into twelve tribes. Each tribe had attributes that connected them with similar goals, viewpoints, and needs. In the New Testament, Paul shares it this way in 1 Corinthians 12:17-20 NIV. “If the whole body were an eye, where would the sense of hearing be? If the whole body were an ear, where would the sense of smell be? But in fact God has placed the parts in the body, every one of them, just as he wanted them to be. If they were all one part, where would the body be? As it is, there are many parts, but one body.” If a toe is trying to connect to a hand it is frustrating! Finding out where you are connected in the Body of Christ causes us to be fulfilled and allows our gifts to be used.

Breaking the Lies!

It was no accident that you were born in a certain family. Did God cause all the pain and rejection? No! When God gave man free will to choose, He also provide a way to redeem the wrong choices. That is what happened in the Garden of Eden when Adam and Eve chose the wrong tree. God provided total restoration of mankind with the sacrificial lamb who represented Jesus’ sacrifice.

You will need to go through the healing process of forgiving people and yourself for not meeting your expectations. Allow God to remove the disappointment and traumas. Knowing that God loves you and that you are now God’s kid is a major factor in finding you place in the Body of Christ. When we fight for positions and callings instead of focusing that we are all equal as children of God, it causes division and rejection. We all are unique and have a place in God’s heart.

May God open our eyes to see God’s love for us. May Holy Spirit pour out His healing power upon all the traumas and fears that have kept us from connecting to the Body of Christ. May Jesus led us to the victories He has paid for us. May we find our tribe and prosper!

Prayer

Father God,

I need healing where rejections and traumas have happened in my life. I have made many mistakes and put up many barriers to protect myself. Help! I want to be set free from all these hinderances and wrong mindsets. Open my eyes to see Your truth. I invite You in Holy Spirit to correct and realign my thinking to how God sees me and others. I ask for healing from all the rejections and hurts. I am choosing to trust that God is my Father who loves and protects me. Thank You, Jesus, for making the way for me to have a victorious life. Please bring the right God connections into my life. Help me to receive these connections. Amen!

Scripture

Genesis 49, 1 Corinthians 12:12-31 NIV, and Genesis 3.